i am unworthy

unlovely and unlovable

pushing away everyone

and everything dear

it hurts to love

to care

the burden of life is heavy

too heavy

and i’ve stumbled

fallen to the ground

and can’t pick myself back up

here in the dust i cry

muddy tears sting my cheeks

i lay still

paralyzed

there is nothing left in me to fight

nothing to fight for

or against

i am empty